Sometimes, I miss my grandpa and it doesn’t matter what I’m doing I just randomly get sad.
But I’m not sad because I miss him, the thought that my mom doesn’t have her daddy here anymore just eats at me.
The thought that anyone anywhere has to lose someone they love to death hurts my heart.
Also I’m a big crybaby today and I don’t know why.
Well, the deposit is paid and our apartment is picked out.
July 28th here we come. :]
So excited for this new adventure with my love!
Sleeping pills are nice.
Oh so nice.
I could go for some beach time with my baby right about now.
9 more days! <3
So many winterguard show ideas in my head.
And no desire to participate in that world.
Blahhh!
Productivity = 0
Well…. yesterday was a roller coaster.
All I know is that I love this boy, and we can work anything out as long as I don’t shut off and I talk to him.
This whole cuddling-up-until-3-am thing is really really nice, but it’s also exhausting.
Only 5 more classes and 3 finals until this semester is over.
Sitting at work, trying so hard to keep my eyes open.
Need. Sleep.
I just… oh my goodness.
So in love. So incredibly in love. I simply cannot contain it.
I honestly didn’t know I could love someone this much. I didn’t know I could so much over-flow of emotion for one person. It’s like, my body literally can not handle this amount of love I feel, but I like it. I don’t mind that it overflows into every thought, every action, even to those around me. I don’t mind sharing these emotions. In fact, I love to share them. I can’t share them enough.
Avril never fails to give me music to be obsessed with.
Love love loving her new single.
Summer 2013 Anthem - Here’s To Never Growing Up
I’ve always been uptight when it comes to rain outside
and back then I never liked it, when it rained, it poured
I sit up and watch the lightning, you’re here with me tonight
and I’ve never been so frightened of something more
I am looking out the window, the fog takes over light
and for once the curtains aren’t closed
And I have decided I’m in this situation,
and I just can’t dismiss you
Because you’re what I’ve been missing,
and I just can’t resist you
I like the thunder
Cause when you pull me under
I’m not afraid anymore
These walls begin to shake
This storms inside me now
I’m down, your lightning caught me
I’m bound to end up weak
This fire burns in your gaze and I forget to breathe
Outside there’s a haze but this room’s the death of me
This building could be up in flames and we could both go under
And I would never know
Some days I like the thunder
Feels like we’re in a time lapse but here inside I’m frozen
I guess the evening has passed but I’m too caught up to notice
I’m forgetful in your presence
because to me you’re like the essence of a dream
No longer hesitant to let my walls come down
With the rain that’s on my window
Silver just like music, a symphony of motion
And I’m about to lose it
I’m captured by the light harmonizing with the darkness
and there’s no fear tonight, sometimes I guess I like this
I like the thunder
Cause when you pull me under, I’m not afraid anymore
These walls begin to shake, this storms inside me now
I’m down your lightning caught me
I’m bound to end up weak
This fire burns in your gaze and I forget to breathe
Outside there’s a haze but this room’s the death of me
This building could be up in flames
and we could both go under
and I would never know
Some days I like the thunder
I’m lost from the world it’s coming down on me
but we like curl with it perfectly
So this whole world can take it all from me
But they have got nothing that I need, I need
Some days I like the thunder
Cause when you pull me under I’m not afraid anymore
These walls begin to shake
This storms inside me now
I’m down, your lightning caught me
I’m bound to end up weak
This fire burns in your gaze and I forget to breathe
Outside there’s a haze but this room’s the death of me
This building could be up in flames
and we could both go under
and I would never know, no I would never know
Some days I like the thunder
